Posted 4:09 PM by Scott

well, i'm here and there and there and here...

life as a second semester senior is something that everyone should one day experience...my parents may read this but i must explain...see my typica school day goes like this...

10:30 am - alarm goes off...instinctively swing right arm and slam at it for a minute...still beeping...finally realize its my phone alarm and turn it off and go back to sleep...

11:45 am - wake up...look at clock...mutter some curse words about missing class...pull blanket back up and get back to sleep...

1:30 pm - realize i missed class...scratch eyes...scratch balls...use the bathroom...roam house looking for a roommate to converse with...find no one home...go on chads computer...check email...check fantasy...check espn...check blogs...

2:00 pm - go back to my room...pick up xbox controller...play madden/live/street...

3:00 pm - lay back down...think about what work i have due...go find something to read...read...

3:30 pm - hear someone come in...go find them...bullshit with them...go out on the porch...sit and look around for 10-15 minutes...scratch balls...go inside...turn on tv...find on-demand...watch ANYTHING...

5:00 pm - decide to eat something...order delivery...watch around the horn and pti...food comes...eat...

6:30 pm - go back upstairs...look around...clean room...take shower...dress up...call people...play some more xbox...

8:00 pm - check email...try to do some work...get distracted and look for players to pick up for my fantasy baseball team...get a call asking to go out...decide i should because i'ma senior...

9:30 pm - go to funktion practice...realize only 5 of us decide to show up...bullshit and talk about people...call people so we can all go out...

11:30 pm - arrive at decided destination...pull out id and bouncer does a double take because i look like i'm sixteen...laugh cuz its funny that i look young...go in...order a drink...look at people...laugh...next drink...more laughs...next drink...even more laughs...drinks taste like water...

2:00 am - bar closes...decide where to go...get some food...end up somewhere real drunk...cracking jokes...get stuck on a couch laughing...noah breaks something...dorsey follows...attempt to move...can't...slowly pass out...

well thats sorta what its like...prolly a lil more exciting...well i should be writing this paper but i have better things to do...holler...

Posted 10:22 AM by Scott

a new year, a new life...

thats whats gonna happen to many of us graduating this year...we'll be gone from our comfort (for some, our ann arbor bubble) and be thrown to the wolves of the real world...but before i comment on whats to come, lets recap on what 2003 brought...

1. love - from all places...from mi familia, my friends, co-workers...but especially from anne marie, a special girl who taught me so much about myself and what it means to love and be loved...i had once given up on love, for all its heartache and pain, but she taught me how love is unconditional...it may not have worken out, but there'll always be a special place in my heart for you...31303143...

2. friends - i always thought that HS would have been the best time of my life...but i was wrong...friends, some stay, some go, but this year i think i've found a good group of people i really care about...gay as that is, its the truth...

3. partying/drinking - i have definitely drank, smoked, and partied a good amount in my life...last year, i drank alot and partied alot...but somehow, through all the fun and excitement that came along with it, it kinda has lost its appeal...when i was a younger lad, it was all about coppin a fifth of smirnoff and finishin even before you went out, and then tryin to find a party, and then if that, a girl...but now i think i'd rather just cop a couple of brews with some people and politik about life...

4. alot more, but i'm tired now...

so whats to come for 2004?...a new years resolution?...first, i gotta go and do what i want to do...it seems like a very simple thing to say, but its the truth...i've got to carve my own etch in the stone, without anyone's help...its hard to stand up on your own when you've always got a cruth (ahem, my parents)...i love em more than anything in this world and thank them for everything they've done for me, but i've got to let go and see if i can make it on my own...thanks to anne, i see that i've got to make my own path, not be led into one...i'd also like to make hella alot of money this year...and work out alot...lose these pretty love handles...more like love grips...huh?...and expand my intellect in all ways possible...knowledge is power...

so with that, i'm out of ideas...happy new year to you all...

Posted 1:27 AM by Scott

lost in the little things...

while i sit here and realize the direness of my academic situation, i can't help but he happy for all that i have...its crazy, cuz i always knew i'd be a successful person, but it hits me that in only 4 months i'll be graduating from college...i really still don't get the implications of this because of my naivety, but i know this is something that my family and i have worked on for 21 years...its so nuts i tell u to try to comprehend all that i've experienced, but even more nuts to think about all the things ahead...i'm just happy that i've made it...

well i haven't made it just yet...i just finished a take home test that could be at best rated meiocre...i have bio test on wednesday...a politcal psychology test on friday...and oh yeah, a 20 page paper that must get started because its due in 5 days...but thats 4/5 pages a day starting tomorrow...i'm gonna kill shit i tell u...

oh, new eye candy = jessica alba...uh...uh...uh...uh...ungh!!!!!

Posted 12:12 AM by Scott

blogging for the sake of blogging...

so, its two days in a row that i'm blogging...insane i know...

i sit here at chads comp (cuz i don't have internet in my room of course) and realized i've been trekking between the 1st, 2nd and 3rd floors of my house for the last 8 or so hours...i don't think i've ever spent a whole night in my house without leaving until tonite...its kinda cool, but it feel like time kinda gets caught inside so it feels like days when its only been hours...

in front of me is a seventeen magazine...inside, is an article on u of m...inside that article quote is a picture of chad with a headband and a bubble vest...and caption with it aka the quote of year...(drumroll please)..."i love my polo sport headband. it makes me feel like an olympic skier"...ummmm, okay...thats my boy though....

do you have dry and oily skin...i do...so i use this oil controlling face wash so my forehead and nose won't bling bling all day...but the damn thing dries my skin up like no other...so i lotion my face after i wash...and what happens?...it becomes oily...wtf...damn neutrogena...

alright, back to this paper...

Posted 9:12 PM by Scott

studying and gettin old...

thats what i've been thinkin about the last hour or so (along with should i trade richard jefferson after he put up 22 tonite) as i sat in the grad library...these kids around me look so young...not that i look too old myself, but they look like babies...i remember when i thought it was cool to come to the ugli or the grad to study cuz everyone you knew would also be there...now its like "damn, the only way i can get something done is to go to the library...and its cold as shit out here and i live miles away"...i feel kinda out of place now...i have no one to talk on the phone to outside the reading room...i feel too old to roam the 2nd and 4th floors of the ugli looking for someone to distract me for an hour or so...i miss those days...

and whats up with all these questions i get from family and friends..."so...what are you going to do when u graduate?"...man, what the fuck...i don't know...i know i want to help somebody...i want to put my stamp on the world in a good way...i remember jon saying to me one drunken night that i couldn't change the world...well of course i can't, but i can change someone's life...be it thru teach for america, peace corps, or my own little change at 850 w eastwood, its gonna be helping somebody out...

so, here i sit, next to a guy a knew from sophmore year, yapping away about whether to take tim thomas or keith van horn (i say van horn because i've never fancied tim too much with his wasted potential and all)...ah, this life of meaningless conversations that mean so much...so i'll have to stop this babble and start a paper on the voting rights for ex prisoners...i'm gonna love it...

ps - hell with big subjects, babble is the best way to blog...

Posted 7:55 PM by Scott

campaign finance...

i know, i know...you're probably like this is a fuckin boring thing to write about...but hear me out...i'm currently doing research for a poli sci project on wesley clark...anyway, after getting some info, there is a ridiculous discrepancy in the amounts of money president bush raises and the amount all other democratic candidates raise...bush has raised over $80 million already...more than all of the dem candidates combined...that makes absolutely no sense...well it kind of does b/c bush is all about corporations and the rich...but aren't all elite politicians...its a game of the rich and bush is playing it better than anyone -- ever...

and i'm writing this b/c i see these students campaigning for seats in umich's student government...its grassroots at its finest...tshirts, fliers, emails, standing out in the cold...its beautiful...and thats where i think alot of citizens feel disenfranchised with the federal government...theres no personal interaction, no trying...everything is set up, a process, a cycle, a system...aides plan out each candidates lives, to the minute...and they only talk to people who support them...what happened to winning over the other side...i've always been a supporter of fufilling your duties as a citizen, but the older i get, the more i see the BS of the government...you vote, but you don't vote directly (ie electoral college)...you pay taxes, which are a good thing, but nothing you ever want fixed is fixed...you see these big-wigs buying policy, literally...ah, how knowledge makes you more cynical of this system...its the life of a college student...

Posted 10:37 AM by Scott

fall is beautiful...

yes, it really is...colors chaning, not too cold, not too hot...purty...i'm at work now and i'm looking out my window trying to figure out how all these buildings just plopped onto this land...have you ever thought about it?...before, say the early 1800's, all this land we know as Chicago or Ann Arbor or Miami was just land...no buildings, no streets, no nothing...just plants, animals, and wild mandingo people...thats just wild...just a short 200 years ago, a solitary wolverine was nesting her young in the same place you took a piss...thats messed up dude...

anyway, i've decided to start going to church more...i know i've said this many times, but something inside of me is spiritually lacking...and its also because of the feeling i get when i leave church...i feel alive and refreshed...

i just passed someones xanga and he talked about how he felt lucky to be living in a house with his friends...well i don't...these fuckers break tables, leave pubic hair, drink too much beer...jk...nah, i am real lucky to be living with this good group of guys...not trying to be cocky or anything, but we've got our shit going on...we're all on that road to success...and plus, it dosen't hurt that theres really never a dull moment...always something to do (madden, family guy, clown chad), always something to argue about (money, religion, girls) and always something to eat/drink (bells, killans, gin)...a great place is this 940 greenwood...

new hot shit = atlanta bread company...going there right now...holla...